Tuesday 29 November 2022

29 11 2022

Going where you are not comfortable is a v good way to learn - getting so much out of this, though may have to paint it all out. And its growing....

Very charmed by the thought that as Christianity has failed both as a state religion and a personal ethos, paganism is returning. The tree is worshiped rather than the man on it. And so on, many thoughts - mostly around the need to sacralise. 

Off to Carcassonne for the day, need to let the paint settle.

Friday 25 November 2022

25 11 2022

 Covering canvas seems to be all I'm good for - but the more gets covered the richer the possibilities. The Last Supper - or whatever it is - is shaping up, if slowly. The photos of it make me doubt my vocation. 

Tuesday 22 November 2022

22 11 2022

 Doc says my cough and breathless ness is a crise d'asthma and has given heavy doses of cortisone. You have to trust someone and for all he's a boy child he must have been trained so I'm complying. Which is me telling myself it's all right to feel this weird. Got to studio for 9.00am and had to stop at 10.00 knackered, despite this day is clear and entirely devoted to studio work. Coffee, lots of - and better luck later. Getting fed up with the meal I'm painting - let it be done, with all its flaws.

Saturday 19 November 2022

19 11 2022

reached the fiddly stage - actually finished or near as damn it. One of them anyway.

Friday 18 November 2022

18 11 2022

Still trying to sort the death/boat things - 

think one of the emerging Eves is finished -

and one isn't.

Actually working on another painting which I seem to have not photographed. Well, it's got a long way to go and is confusing me a lot. More on that as and when.


Wednesday 16 November 2022

16 11 2022

 Lost the day, effectively - lots of in-house activity and then the dead tulips yelled at me to be done, unfinished and took all the studio time. Can't think why, maybe they'll be useful one day. Doubt it. Might have another go tomorrow.

Putting off the big picture that I actually want to do, but is a bit scarey.

Sunday 13 November 2022

13 11 2022

 Got to Carcassonne yesterday - came back rejoicing, with 6 100 x 100 canvases and 3 80 x 80. Was thinking how long it'll take to gesso them properly but realised that that is part of the engagement with the canvas, must be done by me. 

Guests all gone, an oasis of time hoving up.

Friday 11 November 2022

11 11 2022

This little scene was over Bobs shoulder as I tried to snap him last night - last supper or what?? Charmed by it and its structure and can feel a new testament series arriving. Below, things I'm fiddling with. Backs gone so in corset, foot bandaged - I'm lucky some bits of me of working.
So; off to the sea-side today


Thursday 10 November 2022

10 11 2022


Marcus and Amilie have bought these two and will collect another 3 - Waiting for Chemo in a Time of Covid, Palais de Dance Macabre and War in Heaven. 

This encouragement has seen me painting furiously since, or at least trying to finish the little ones about death that are lying about.

Can now afford some big canvases. Going shopping for them on Saturday.

Sunday 6 November 2022

06 11 2022

 Been dipping in and out. Trying to come to grips with what's been done and why. Quite captivated by a couple and again, don't know why. Lala. Rather occupied with arrival of guests and my own need for order, which has been drowning for a while.