In Amsterdam, by luck, I met Lino Hellings. She advised me to keep my work diary on-line, exposing my work methods rather than protecting them, risking the humiliation involved in failure. So:celebrate error. In my heart I knew this to be a good idea. My brain, horrified, fortunately tells me it will be too boring for anyone to read.
Wednesday 26 April 2023
26 04 2023
Despite it all, feel v well - which I attribute to the healing power of art. And the change in the weather.
Saturday 22 April 2023
22 04 2023
Looks even nastier now, since the afternoons work :)
Bit of luck though. Since the screaming rat appeared in the Mauvais Cou I've been attentive to errors and opportunities, hence the lines and black marks over the mouth. Long story.... will write it up when I'm awake.
Thursday 20 April 2023
20 03 2023
Wednesday 19 April 2023
19 04 2023
Friday 14 April 2023
14 04 2023
Visit from Regina yesterday, looking to buy a painting, meant looking through stock in the gallery - and they are not all terrible. Some are, but not all. She is so encouraging, wanting to know their stories and my directions as as I told her I realised I'm not gaga or dilatant or neurotic after all. Not always.
Didn't find a picture but we are looking through the store tomorrow.
Have started drawing - on the paper Bernard Heslin sent before his death, deep- embossed ripple/sand patterns - using charcoal at the mo but think I may overpaint. I'm doing a Kitaj and painting my maladies. Odd things are happening, of course - the oddest being the emergence, unbidden, of a screaming rat.
Tuesday 11 April 2023
11 04 2023
Despite strenuous efforts, much changes, I hate this picture. Hate the thinking and the paint. Have turned to wall. Going to clean out studio and take to the hills with a drawing book.
And overpaint some finished pics that I also hate.
If I could think of a new career I'd embrace it.
Friday 7 April 2023
07 04 2023
At the end of the day yesterday had managed to do some effective tweaking - today I'm doing my tax returns so I don't have to face it.
Sunshine out there...
Monday 3 April 2023
04 04 2023
Still fiddling - Im missing something.
Going to take a bus to Carcassonne and hang out in the beaux arts, time for a change of air.