

In Amsterdam, by luck, I met Lino Hellings. She advised me to keep my work diary on-line, exposing my work methods rather than protecting them, risking the humiliation involved in failure. So:celebrate error. In my heart I knew this to be a good idea. My brain, horrified, fortunately tells me it will be too boring for anyone to read.


...still at it, all is possible with aircon though would very much like blinds for the velux - sun beats in.
Don't like having to keep windows and shutters shut, feel too remote from the world.
But this will pass and lord help us, there may come a time when we think these days were heaven.
...Aircon good enough and the painting continues, very very bad but l like it. There's a series and when they're finished we'll see. Dream led; maybe that's why they please me so much.
Trying to find a way to make a blind to cover the skylights and failing - no way can I mount a stair ladder! - will ask for help next week though this extreme heat will be over by then, god willing.
Little deer painting has arrived in Switzerland!! Made it in one piece and the dear darling client likes it. Feel like a real painter.
ridiculous heat... and Im not posting any of the work Im doing, too shocking! Kitsch, tacky, jejune -nice I can shock myself.
There's a little aircon unit in the studio so painting fairly easy, except it isn't. I seem to be channelling my inner Picabia, from his most uninspiring time.
There's an exhibition of his work at Ceres which I can get to, via three buses and several hours. Fairly daft thing to do in the current extreme heat so that idea on hold.
Back to the old roller-coaster of delight in getting something right and total despair when it aint. If it weren't so hot I'd give it up and try some housework.
Back from Engerland... not a single exhibition did I get to, family stuff being pervasive. Nice, but no opportunity to get to Ai WeiWei in Manchester which I'd have liked, but no big deal. Nice to see the adorable tribe.
Now Bobs away and in theory I can get on with a painting or two. Managed to get the sold deer and steerer painting off to Marie-Pierre who will take it by train to Switzerland, then post it, bless her. Went to tidy the studio and found mouse droppings everywhere, god knows how they've got in. Have washed what can be washed, hope to feel more able tomorrow. Large numbers of drawings knocking about. A couple may be useful.
Looking for a photo of my sweet brother Steve and found this.... Steve died yesterday after a stint in intensive care. Im off to York to be with my remaining siblings.