In Amsterdam, by luck, I met Lino Hellings. She advised me to keep my work diary on-line, exposing my work methods rather than protecting them, risking the humiliation involved in failure. So:celebrate error. In my heart I knew this to be a good idea. My brain, horrified, fortunately tells me it will be too boring for anyone to read.
Friday, 28 June 2024
29 06 2024
Thursday, 20 June 2024
20 06 2024
Friday, 14 June 2024
14 06 2024
Totally lazy morning since yesterdays work is so dull. Followed by a lazy afternoon, on the terrace in the sun reading Berlioz's Memories. Poor man. Though enjoy his irascibility.
Tuesday, 11 June 2024
11 06 2024
That's not what I meant at all, that's not it at all...
So spent the day cleaning up, pottering with half baked unfinished bits, wondering what I'd save if push comes to shove.
Rather floating on the euphoria of painkillers.
Have to trust what I know of the process.
Sunday, 9 June 2024
09 06 2024
creaking along here.
Bought standard 300gm watercolour paper - 30 sheets - at 1.50 e per sheet. Not ideal but at least cheap. Feel compromised by choice, dosh, circumstances. Wrong decisions, poor project.
Yuri gone, Bob kindly took him to the airport which is why I could get to buy paper. Miss his erudition and kindness.
Three days clear before a young niece of Bobs moves in with us for a month. Charming child, of course, though I'm slightly concerned that I'II end up baby-sitting; no idea how capable she is. Bob is pushing off to England for some of her visit.
Thursday, 6 June 2024
06 06 2024
It lacks lustre, for sure, but it does the job. Now in an odd position: started this diary for many reasons but one was to use the paper left me by Bernard. Now that is all but gone. The point was not to die leaving fabulous unused paper. But but but now to finish the damn thing I have to buy more and so revert to earlier problem.
Ridiculous.
Think I'II just change paper and finish up differently. Since I envisage the end product as photographed then size and texture are academic (---) except its all quite different.
Bernard would unhesitatingly buy more. For sure.